I'm Back

I know I dip out for a minute say I'm back and then I am gone again. I promise to do better after Tuesday. One of my classes end and I will have lots more time to do other things like blog. In the mean time I would like to say that I am in such a good place for right now I think. I think I am in the official beginning stages of moving on or taking the situation for what it is and doing what I have to do for ME!! I am so at peace with this situation right now and I haven't felt that way about the situation in quite some time. Well I will do some more this weekend if time permits or on Wednesday have a good weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Tears Fall Again :(

I am going to try and blog more often because I need some sort of release. This week has been super rough for me. The one who shattered my heart in a million pieces has been on my mind heavy. I wish that I could just shake him and move on but something in me won't let me. I was driving the other day and something made me think of him and this whole retarded situation (no offense to the handicapped) and I just burst into tears. I always say that if the chance comes I am going to straight up tell him my feelings for him and leave it at that. That way he knows that I love him and he can think I am crazy and I can go on with my life but at least he will know. I want to get it done but on the other hand I am afraid he will think I am psycho, but when you have a semi relationship with someone for almost ten months and no it was not all physical I think it is natural for feelings to come into play.

I don't know what I am going to do because that is neither here nor there because I have no intentions of calling him anytime soon. I have stepped back from that situation as best as I can. I know that calling him will probably result in him not answering or us having a nice convo and him promising to call back later, but later never comes and I am the one left hurt. Nope not this time if we speak it will be because he dialed my number not vice versa. Well I am tired of talking about this situation but it is good to get some of this off my chest. Maybe tomorrow I will have a post about my uneventful summer, or I could talk about my trip to Miami for Memorial Day weekend, it wasn't terribly exciting but it should be fun enough for a post goodnight guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Summer Time

I know I haven't blogged in quite some time, but summer school has been kicking my butt. I am going to try and do a real blog this weekend some time. Even though nothing exciting has happened!