Nothing New

This week is about to be one hectic week for me, I should enjoy this weekend because next weekend is going to be busy and fun the HBCU here in town is having their homecoming so things will be on and poppin and I am looking forward to that. Me and the girls will have lots of fun! However in order to get to the weekend of fun I must get through this week which involves one presentation and two exams. One of which I am not that worried about.

Lately I just feel so tired. Even though two days out of the week I have one class and on Friday's no class, ya girl is dog tired. There are so many things that I need to get done, my room is a mess. I started cleaning it up last week and then somewhere between throwing things away and putting things up I got stuck and now I am in a complete disarray. I try to keep my room somewhat clean because my boo be complaining about my "dirty ass room" as he calls it. And I would rather not hear him and other folks talk about the mess so I try to keep it reasonable. I be like dang I am a busy girl can I get some slack! But since I don't have a job people are like you ain't that busy, but I am.

Well I am about to go curl up in the bed and watch Flip Thi.s House, so I holla at blogworld later.

School, School, School

Everytime I get on the blogging thing and update more than once a month in comes the school monster and messes everything up. The school work is piling up and it is now test time again which means that there is studying to be done, and since the plan is to walk across the stage and receive my diploma in December the work must get done. I have a few post in the works so maybe if I have free time or I can finish one of those up and post it or if not I will be back to my regular scheduled posting next week. In the mean time if anyone reads this have a good week/weekend!!!!!!!!!!!

"Sometimes we want things that may not be right for us"

The title of this post relates to the song by Letoya entitled "Obvious". In the song she says exactly what the title say "sometimes we want things that may not be right for us but when we're in love we tend to look over the obvious." Now I can't say if I loved him or if I had really strong feelings but boy did I ever look over the obvious. Looking back on that situation I see how he half assed that whole situation and because I liked him so much I overlooked that. I kept telling myself this is not an exclusive situation he doesn't owe me anything and I don't owe him anything. However when the situation ended with me broken hearted I was the one who felt like he owed me plenty.

I just kept holding on that one day things were going to change, not without some hope he had given me. We always had these conversations about him and I becoming an us. You guessed it ten months later and we were still a him and I. Looking back I don't feel stupid or upset because I don't regret one minute of anytime I ever spent with him, I just wished he had not of gotten my hopes up. I decided to write this post because I just saw him not even an hour ago in traffic and normally when I see him my stomach takes this huge drop even if it is not face to face. However today it was just a tiny drop and more of the feeling of I hope he didn't see me staring because I have a tendency to be all in peoples cars anyway. I had no idea that he was about to turn right next to me. Anyway I am getting of track but when I saw him after thinking I hope he didn't see me, my next thought was I don't want him anymore. I have thought that I didn't and said it but today that was the first thing that came to my mind and I didn't have to tell myself that myself told me (if that makes any sense).

I think I have finally read the last page in that chapter and can now continue on to a better chapter. I realize that right now the guy I am seeing is pretty good. He calls when he says he will and does what he says he's going to do. He doesn't have me waiting on a phone call or visit that may or may not happen. He doesn't freak out if I get emotional, he listens and most of all we have chemistry and fun together. Now I am not saying I didn't have those things with him because I either like, like you or I don't, but this time it is still a different experience because they are on different levels maturity wise. I don't know where things will go with him, but I appreciate meeting someone who follows through and doesn't leave me wondering where he is and what he is doing.

Weekend Musings

It is like 5:00 on a Saturday and I cracked my book to read for about five minutes and said F that. I don't know what is wrong with me. Why can't I just do the assigned reading in a timely fashion so that two days before the test I am not reading 8 chapters. We already know me reading those eight chapters in their entirety for a thirty question exam is not about to happen. I will figure out some way to go through the book and weed out the info that I think is important, and of course those oh so handy study guides.

I am being such a slob today. I have yet to set foot outside of my door and if I wasn't hungry and didn't have any plans of not cooking then I would sit in this house all day long like a hermit. Alas though my hunger is going to win so I am going to have to put on some semi decent clothes to go and pick something up. I am NOT suppose to be eating out this weekend but I didn't take anything out to cook and I ate a frozen pizza earlier and I am not really feeling the desire to eat another for my dinner so I will have to leave comfortable surroundings.

Well I am about to go get back in the bed and watch some more news shoes, I know I am just loads of fun. Peace until next time!

Midterms and other random happenings

I cannot believe that midterms are here. Once the semester starts time just seems to fly, which could be a good and a bad thing. I am going to try and get some reading done the remainder of this week so that this weekend I am not knee deep in reading I should have done five weeks ago. I want to do something this weekend and knowing me I will put studying on the backburner to go out and do something. I know bad, bad girl!

I actually cooked dinner last night and it was good. I wish I could just cook often because when I go through my bank statements I spend like 70 dollars eating out in a month. That is truly ridiculous seeing as most of the time it is fast food and not at an actual restaurant. So my goal for next week will not to eat out fast food wise at all. I think I can do it, the real challenge will be on the weekend when I really don't feel like cooking and going to grab something is easier. This should be fairly easy seeing as I don't eat but at a handful of fast food places because I stopped eating at a few because I was truly doing overkill at those places.

Well I am going to peace out and see if I can find something productive to do with my time, shoot I may even start reading but I wouldn't get my hopes up to high with that lol!

Things are pretty normal over here. I am so excited because tomorrow I only have two classes and can come home at 1:45 yay! Yesterday I had all these grand plans about making a nice dinner and I was like forget it I am not in the mood to do all that cooking. Even though I really need to start eating better, I am ashamed to admit that I have eaten at Chick-fil-a like five times in the last week. Damn them for having such good fries I couldn't resist. My goal for the next few weeks is to use my cookbook that I spent good money purchasing and try and eat more healthier. By healthier I mean just eating more veggies and fruit because I know that those are lacking in my diet.

My boo and I resolved our little issue, which is good. I have issues in confronting him with things because I sometimes have the tendency to take molehills and turn them into mountains. Then in hindsight I see where I could have misinterpreted things when I talk them over with my friends. So before I go to him with my "dramatics" because I can be a little dramatic, I have to think things over and make sure that I am not overreacting to the situation. Last week I had a little episode where I broke down crying twice because I was misinterpreting things and jumping to conclusions. He and I talked things out and I am glad for that because at least he didn't look at me like I was crazy and was like forget this. We discussed my and "our" issues so that we are not going down that road again. Also I am grateful for my friend who is my sounding board. She was like I don't know how you took his text and turned it into what you thought he was trying to say. Well I got some chores to do so I am going to dip.

Patience

Boy let me tell you I think I am one of the most impatient people in the world. When I want something done or want to do something I want everything to fall in to place immediately and get things done. I hate having to wait on people to go places or make plans. I say all this as I patiently (yeah right) wait a confirmation on plans for tonight. These should already be solidified but someone is taking their precious time and I have about had it. If you want to watch football tonight then let me know and I will make other plans with other people. Don't have me waiting until the game is half over and then be like oh we can do something. Obviously this whole entire post is in reference to by boo. He is working my nerves with this issue. I don't care if he wants to watch football cool, but let me know so I can make plans with my girls.

Well I am making myself upset even typing this so this semi vent has to end because I refuse to get upset over his foolishness! I am going to make some calls now I'll blog more later

Issues

Well I was having issues logging in for the past two days. I finally opened blogger in Mozilla and it worked, wonder what is up with that.

I think I am suffering from a little bit of senioritis. I had a test today that I half assed studied for. For shame for shame I have got to do better. I always do this do bad on my first test and then have to dig myself out of the hole for the remainder of the semester. I think I do that subconsciously so that I have to force myself to do good for the remainder of the semester as opposed to starting out strong and then falling off.

I am so glad that I don't have class tomorrow, and I can just sleep in. Oh the joys of Friday! However having a long weekend when you don't really have anything to keep you occupied can suck. I will probably get in the bed and be sleep by twelve and be up by eight, and online because I have nothing to do. I wish I had a job so at least I could have some play money if nothing else. Well I am going to go get in the bed or browse facebook or myspace. Goodnight!!!